Finale
When I started this Neurocycle back in mid-October, days were a lot longer and warmer. There seemed to be less to worry about, although there was still plenty. And I was miserable. The doomscrolling I engaged in upon waking up set the tone for my every day. I would get upset or despondent and wouldn’t know why.
I still get upset about things, for sure. But somehow it’s different now: I am more mindful about the reasons why, and I am also just a bit more detached, as if it’s someone else who is experiencing these negative feelings and I am merely deciphering them.
It doesn’t sound like much, but it makes me happy. Or happier at the very least.
I have also set two ambitious goals for myself for 2022: ride the equivalent of 2,789 miles and write a rough draft of a novel. Both will take a lot of persistence and focus, and both are very doable for me. I was watching the OSU/UO football game a month ago when a feeling struck me out of nowhere…it’s hard to put it into words other than to say everything is going to be all right, which doesn’t do the feeling justice. My team lost the game but I wasn’t sad or angry. Anyway, that feeling has lasted about a month so I’ve just been surfing on it. Feel free to surf with me; the water’s fine.
Here endeth the lesson. Here beginneth the next chapter.
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