3.1.2023
5:15am
Suddenly the gnawing is just…gone. This might be only temporary, but…Woohoooooo! I think I am healing!!!
7:55am
I watched the Season 3 opener of The Mandalorian. It didn’t move the story much further, but was fun to watch nonetheless.
It occurs to me that I know very little about love, because love was withheld from me purposely as part of my childhood indoctrination. I know that I like the feeling and crave it, but that is pretty much the extent of my knowledge. I know that the feelings of loneliness and needing love will never go away unless I help others in need with their problems. I want to help people to navigate the systems of living and loving, and be sort of a love pilot if you will. In this way I believe I can complete my healing journey and find my true self. I know it will take years of work and training, but I’m willing to put in the time.
9:07am
Getting myself psyched to do a long spinning workout. The X23 manifesto is running through my head.
10:29am
Crushed the workout. Now I’m an exhausted shell of a man…in a good way though.
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