March 5, 2023
I took my wife out to a movie and dinner today. It was the first all-indoor date we went on since before Covid. We had a great time and we’ll probably make it a regular thing now. The movie we saw was Cocaine Bear; we both loved it.
Cocaine Bear is exactly what it sounds like. It’s probably not going to win many awards, but it is a great piece of cinema. The action is very intense and features a lot of graphic deaths, which my wife (surprisingly) and I (unsurprisingly) didn’t mind. The dialogue is simple but contains a lot of laughs. And the absurdity of the situation (a huge black bear high on cocaine, mauling/dismembering people with abandon in a National Forest) is played to the hilt. In short, this was the perfect movie for me at this point in my life. I have enough shit going on that I really am not looking to ponder life’s deep mysteries in a movie. I just want to watch something that entertains and distracts me for a while. Cocaine Bear delivered!
Before going to the movie, I played guitar for a good long while. (Midlife crisis? Maybe, but who cares! Keeps me from drinking!) Since my wife was home, I plugged in my headphones and shredded through them instead of making the walls shake. It worked wonderfully, making us both happy. I think the combination of journaling and musical expression is healing me more than anything else. Group meetings online and the Subreddit r/stopdrinking help me immensely too.
I had an amazing dream during a micronap today, which I may post about later. My dreams ever since my recovery started have been a very pleasant surprise…no nightmares, all very uplifting and inspiring. Alcohol is never in them at all. I think it might be my subconscious mind compensating for the rough daytimes that recovery often brings.
The week ahead looks pretty promising: I have several good meetings lined up for work, I have my first ever therapy session, I have my group meeting online, and I have my guitar and several books I’m working on. I think I’m going to clean and oil my work boots tonight, and I’ll be tired and ready for bed by the time I’m done, hopefully.
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