March 6, 2023
1:57pm
It’s been a pretty busy day so this is my first chance to journal. I brought a suggestion to my second meeting of the day. It was not well received, and my first instinct was to sulk about it. But I remembered two of the four agreements, Don’t Take Anything Personally and Don’t Assume Anything, and that helped me keep my chin up. Later in the meeting a better suggestion was brought up and I think the whole thing was a blessing in disguise. I’m actually glad my idea was shot down!
I have felt more like my “normal” self today and keeping very busy definitely plays into it. I talked during my third meeting with people I like, trust and admire very much. They are my people.
Hey, my son is able to go with me to see Mastodon GOJIRA and Lorna Shore in April! Stoked for that show! I’ll pick him up after work that day and we’ll drive to Portland together. We used to go to shows all the time back when he was in high school (15-19 years ago).
3:34pm
Feeling a void in me. It’s not the gnawing, just a vague and nagging sense that I need something, but I can’t tell what that something is. It’s annoying but nowhere near as devastating as the gnawing.
4:24pm
Tried listening to GOJIRA at high volume. It doesn’t fill the void completely, but it’s enough to get me by.
5:25pm
Home from work, and can’t keep my eyes open. So sleepy. Failure to hack. Don’t know if I should go to bed or what.
5:38pm
The wife made me eat some leftover salmon Caesar salad, and I feel much more awake and the void is gone. Maybe I was just hungry?
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