March 9, 2023
Waking up, I’m thinking about yesterday and the many different dimensions it had. It started out anxious, then became hopeful, then the hope was rewarded with joy, then there was exhaustion mixed with happiness and connection, then the happiness faded away leaving only exhaustion and emptiness when I went to bed. At first I was angry at myself for letting myself feel the exhaustion and emptiness. A lot of good things happened for me yesterday, and I made them happen…I was guilty for feeling anything other than pure joy.
But then I decided it’s all right to feel my feelings, good or bad. No one gets to tell me how appropriate my feelings are. I decide on that.
Now I feel much better, and I’m ready to be a rockstar today. The rockstar can have a range of emotions; the rock show is not always happy. And that’s all right.
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