March 13, 2023
10:03am
After yesterday’s drama (a brief but powerful wave of anger/guilt/sadness), things have settled down for me. It’s still uncomfortable though. It’s not as bad as the gnawing. But I am noticing a fair amount of mild irritability and general dissatisfaction, which I just call the howling. The howling I can deal with, even though I don’t love it. Work is going well so far today.
1:57pm
In touch with the ground
I break from the crowd
I’m on the hunt I’m after you
I smell like I sound
I’m lost and I’m found
And I’m hungry like the wolf.
The howling has not left me. Maybe it’s going to stay a while.
5:07pm
The howling can be part of a happy feeling, not necessarily part of dissatisfaction. I feel happy right now and the howling is still here. I’ve made my peace with the howling and it can stay as long as it wants. I can be a civil human even with the howling present. And I can howl in the face of civility.
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