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I had a dream last night I was using scissors to lightly trim my beard, as I often do. As I trimmed I noticed large clumps of whiskers were falling, more than I intended to trim. I looked in the mirror and indeed, I was not trimming but shaving, taking the entire beard off. IContinue reading “Dream Journal–the Beard Trim”

I watched the movie The Whale today with my wife. We both thought it was a brilliant movie, but it wasn’t exactly easy to watch. Some of it reminded me of my own struggles with recovery from Alcohol Use Disorder. One thing about it was pretty cool though. The movie has a lot of referencesContinue reading “Mr. Stubb and The Whale”

Yesterday I rode almost 56 miles, and it would have been an extremely happy day but for one thing: the weather. This year Mother Nature has not received the version of the calendar that includes the First Day of Spring on it. Temperatures were in the high 30’s Fahrenheit yesterday, and that wasn’t the worstContinue reading “The coldest winter I ever spent was spring in Oregon”

March 23, 2023 This is a good day for me. I know I’m not finished with recovery, not by a damn sight. But I can stop being obsessive about it. I’ve hit the marks I needed to hit and am confident in my will. Radical acceptance has made me into an antenna of The ForceContinue reading “Journal Recovery, on to the next thing…biking”

I had a Star Wars read-along book with a cassette tape when I was a young kid. When R2-D2 did his signature beep, that’s how you knew it was time to turn the page. I already knew how to read by the time somebody gave me the book (probably a distant relative who only hadContinue reading “When you hear R2-D2, turn the page”

There have been three times in my life when things took an unexpected but fantastic turn, propelling me to places and events I had not before considered as possible for me. They have always been accompanied by some kind of injury to me, at least at the beginning. Each time it happens I’m reminded ofContinue reading “Journal Recovery, time doesn’t wait for me”

March 20, 2023 5:06amI’ve been getting right around 7 hours of sleep for the past several nights. It’s making all the difference in the world for me; I’m starting to feel like myself again. I had a dream that was a long line of people waiting for government sponsored therapy. Each person, upon reaching theContinue reading “Journal Recovery, s’the only way to be”

March 19, 2023 9:25am“Sure you work!” said Alfy. “Everybody works at something. Getting out of bed’s work! Getting food off your plate and into your mouth’s work! But there’s two kinds of work, kid, work and hard work. If you want to stand out, have something to sell, you got to do hard work. PickContinue reading “Journal Recovery, high on a desert plain”

March 18, 2023 6:14amI slept better and longer last night than I have in a while. I think my treatment is having that effect, which I’m grateful for. I have a long bike ride today so I should get ready for it. 2:02pmFinished my ride (47 miles, 1700’ vertical climb) and kept up with theContinue reading “Journal Recovery, but you don’t, so there you go”

March 17, 2023 7:51amOn the drive to work I was reflecting on how every song’s lyrics seem like recovery lyrics to me nowadays. Then it dawned on me that that’s probably because recovery is just me living my life. Recovery is basically life-plus. So yeah, since the song lyrics are about life it also makesContinue reading “Journal Recovery, but I can’t find my feet”